Future Friends

Everyone leaving Middle School says they're scared, frightened, nervous, about the inevitable future that lays ahead - High School.

That is, everyone except me.

At least I thought that was true. Until now.

The thing was I just never really thought about High School. My thoughts seemed to always skim over those four years as just another boundary in my way to the future.
And I'm not even too worried about the academics part of High School, though I'm sure I will be when school starts in the fall, I'm more worried about my friend group.

Someone once told me that you find the closest friends in in High School. I think that that might be true for her, but for everyone, its not. Plenty examples around me tell me that.

Let's do the math.
Over 60% of my Middle School is going to the same High School as me. And 90% of those 60%, have gone to the same schools as me since kindergarten. But let's not forget that kids usually find their friend groups and blend in by the first quarter of the new school year.
That leaves me around 30-40% chance to find new besties to hang with and stay with for the following next four years.

That's not to bad of a chance but we forgot to add a few factors. One big one being reputations.

I have a reputation. Some think it's a bad reputation, others believe the opposite, some just don't care at all.
I have a reputation. It's the Anti-cussing Mormon girl.
I am a Mormon.
Correction, I am LDS, a Latter-Day Saint.
I belong to the Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.
That's the Mormon girl part, now for the Anti-cussing part.
For that part, we have to go back. Back to fifth grade.
Fifth grade. The grade where every kid thinks he/she is awesome because they aren't in elementary anymore. They're with the big dogs now. Since they're with the big dogs, they get to use big dog language. The language that adults and teens can say but not small children. Cussing. Swearing. Using a foul mouth.
See in the LDS religion, it's not good to swear. So my little fifth grade old self decided to take it upon herself to make the swearing stop. And if the "please stop cussing" didn't work, kicking them in the shins did.
I can't remember the poor little kid whom I first tried the kicking method on but it worked so I kept doing it without thinking about the consequences. One of them being kids stayed away from me because they didn't want to be kicked in the shins.
Of course I had great friends who didn't mind me kicking other people but as time went on, we grew apart.
I've always had friends at school to eat lunch with and spend time together at recess with but the didn't share my standards as an LDS so they never really became close. They were my show friends I guess, we were seen together at school but never anywhere else. And to be honest, I didn't want to be around them, but I had no other friends to turn to so I gave up.
But now I'm back to where I started - almost friendless entering high school.

Then again, what does all this amount up to?
Like I said in the beginning, the future is inevitable, so why spend time ranting about how nervous and scared you are about it, when we should be living in the present.

That's our problem I guess, we humans, we focus on the things we don't know yet and pick them apart with worry when instead, we should rejoice in the things we do know and that are happening this very moment and leave the rest up to Heavenly Father.